It’s been a while since I’ve last spoken to you. I’m pretty happy at the moment, but I’m feeling very anxious. And in the back of my mind, I kinda regret the fact that I never lived my life to the fullest. I know it doesn’t seem too late, but what’s really left of my teenage years?
Honestly, I don’t think me and my boyfriend would last the rest of eternity but I’m gonna make the best out of it right now. I’m slowly losing feelings. It’s not the same anymore, but who knows. I don’t even know how I’ll know that I’m in love with someone. Deep down, I don’t think I deserve it. I don’t think I have a soulmate out there. But I’ve always been the little pessimist when it came to love and anything mushy, lol.
I’m amazed at how I always put up a front to my friends, family, strangers, etc… But at this point in my life I can say “I’m fine” and I won’t be lying. I’m not even crying as I am typing this, which is rare. I have so many thoughts stuck in my head tumblr. But I’m not willing to tell anyone other than you.